I am OK

Well I think I am ok. Mom is getting worse, my poor brother had to see my dad - the Rock - crying on Sunday. I've had the fuck-its on and off but haven't want to drink, well that's not entirely true, I've been wanting something to make this all go away! But then Amy Winehouse died and bam! There it is again, this shit kills! So I am sober, not quite happy about it at times...but the alternative is so much worse!