"XXXIII. Forever grateful." That was my sponsors Facebook status this morning!
Is that freaking amazing!!!?? 33 years sober! If you ask her how she does it, she will still say one day at a time. Wow, that's many days. She is a wonderful woman who has always been there for me and has been a crucial part of my recovery! I am so grateful for her!
I remember in my early days in the rooms hearing someone having 20 years and me thinking, really, why!? how!? Then later the thought changed to ok, maybe 10th years but 20? - you should be cured by then I think. Then again the thought changed to wow, that is incredible, how did they do it? And now, I feel like wow, that's very cool, that could be me!
So all this got me thinking how things continuously change. My thoughts are so different than they were even a year ago! Things that seemed like catastrophes at the time, today seem like just some rough times that I got through and experienced huge growth.
I know in early sobriety I had many nevers and always type thoughts, I will never get sober for good, I will never be happy, I will never get married or have kids, I will never have a family, and I will always be a drunk, I will always be alone, I will always have a crappy life.
Things that I thought were unattainable at some point, well, it seems that they are right in front of me and i believe that it has all happened only because I am sober!
EVERYTHING changes...I'm still figuring out how to deal with that. But sober is good, life will be great, just gotta keep going and growing.
ReplyDeleteAhhh.... Yes, a bit tricky! I think for me I just try to go with the flow, it doesn't always work but I have found that the less I resist the easier it becomes, and I know that as long as I stay sober I can do it! Yep, keep moving forward! Thanks for stopping by :)
DeleteHow awesome for you and your sponsor! i always say i've been sober for --[2 years, 8 months and 7 days]-- and it still isn't long enough. The encouraging thing for me is that my life has been getting consistently better since i got sober, which means i'm happy now and excited about the gifts the future will bring!
ReplyDeleteThat's awesome Al! I love it that you know your sober time down to the day! Congrats! Let the gifts keep coming!
Deleteisn't it amazing how everything changes... in ways we can NOT predict, preview, prevision, or pretend to understand. holy, it all gets much much better! i'm sober nearly 15 months, and it's still getting better all the time. some individual days suck,but the upswing is remarkable and not coincidental... get sober, and then things get better. Hooray for that!
ReplyDeleteSo true! If anyone would have told me then what my life was going to be like when I got sober I would have laughed at them for sure! And at times now, I can't believe it either. Sure some days suck, but some days suck for others too, I am no different! But yes, get sober and things get better!
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