So the whole thing has left me rather blah, and since I don't like being blah, I am trying to come up with some of the positives about this weekend.
The biggest thing that I have realized was that there was definitely some surprising growth for me! I have found, again, that the same tools I have learned through the 12 Steps in AA (Alcoholics Anonymous) that I use to keep from drinking, I can also apply to keeping leveled through some tough situations. For instance, I repeated the serenity prayer quite often, I went to a meeting and shared about it. I called people in the program to get things off my chest. And I prayed, asking my Higher Power for strength and ability to make the right decisions - and to help me keep my ego right sized.
Then, when my daughter told me that she was very angry and felt like she was going to blow, I suggested to her few things (that I have learned in AA) that she might try to help her calm down. We talked about taking deep breaths, listening to music and reading a book. Also I suggested that we maybe call someone, like Nana. We did some breathing and listened to music and talked... lots of talking... Unfortunately all this worked just temporarily but I know we will have a chance to practice some more in the near future! Lol!
I also found myself repeating things to my daughter which I have learned in the program:
- We are only in control of ourselves.
- Do the next right thing.
- Let it go.
- Find acceptance.
- This too shall pass.
A GOOD day is when everything goes my way and I don't drink,
A GREAT day is when nothing goes my way and I don't drink.