I got up in a great mood. Kids all listened this morning, and there was no yelling or arguing. I looked out the window and the sun was shining and the birds were chirping. LOL!
On the way to school I turned up the radio and we bopped to the music. I dropped the kids off and headed towards the commuter train station. Music still blaring...
And then, there it was, that thought: wouldn't it be nice....
...to sit in the sun, with a little umbrella drink... to relax and let the calm flow of the alcohol take over me... to feel as if nothing mattered... ahhh...
Yes, I still have those thoughts here and there; this is how I know that IT is still out there, waiting for me to let my guard down. Enticing my with its promises of "pomp and glory."
But I know better. I have been here before.
I have been swayed, I have taken the bait. AND, I know the truth... I have never drank little umbrella drinks! LOL! It was always barrels of wine or jugs of vodka! And it was not pretty at all, it was fast and furious!
Yes, it's a beautiful morning, I have a smile on my face.
I AM SOBER.
Life if good!