I got to lead a meeting last night, it's always such a gift to be asked to start a meeting. Sharing my story of how it used to be, what happened and how it is now, is a true reminder of the miracle that sobriety is. It also gives me the hope that I may carry the message to another suffering alcoholic. This it how it works, by sharing our experiences, strengths and hopes!
When sharing, I was reminded of how long it was before I finally was able to admit that I had a problem. It reminded me how I just didn't believe that I was ever going to get sober, let alone be sober for almost 5 years (4/15/08)! I really thought that I just was "constitutionally incapable of being honest with myself." - Big Book - 5. How It Works. My life was totally unmanageable and I had many consequences from my drinking. But I just didn't see it as a problem, crazy right? DUI, jail, ASAP, ADS, detox, rehab and CPS, and I just though I had bad luck - and lots of it! But people in AA kept saying Keep Coming Back, and Don't Quit Before the Miracle Happens and It Get's Better. And they loved me when I hated everything about me and about my life! And they told me that they understand and they have been there! They gave me hope! They gave me a new life!
These are the amazing things about AA fellowship! And whether you have been sober 1 day or 10 years, the feelings are the same, the struggles are the same! The solution for me today is AA, 12 Steps and the Big Book, they saved my life!
Grateful to be sober another 24 hours!